This blog started with a dream. Or lack thereof.
Today is February 9, 2012 and I came from a Bible study at our office. The topic tonight was about GOD's dream for our lives.
Dream. Yeah, that thing.
As much as this topic excites me, it also terrifies me. You see, whenever the topic of ambitions and aspirations get brought up, I fear to have to face the question, "How about you, Hanna. What's your dream?"
To which I could only answer a long "Meh..."
I've never had a dream. Would you believe that. Embarassing. While others could describe their future plans as if they've memorized it, seen it played in their heads millions of times, I grope in the dark. It has always been my stinky fish--the thought that I actually lacked the capacity to conceive a dream or vision for my life. I had no idea whatsoever of anything I could envision for myself whether for short term or long term.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not an efficient person. My every day is actually usually jam-packed with things that consist of work, ministry, family, relationships, and (the list goes on). But at the end of the day, life was just, well... lived by the day. A punch-the-clock thing. Nothing more. And it's not like I liked being dream-less. I've always asked God for a dream, cried out to Him for it even. But it has just never broken through, I guess.
So much so that if there is truth in the saying, "A person without a dream is a dead person," well then you can say that for so long, I've been a zombie.
But God is good. Like an answered prayer, He woke up the dreamer in me.
Going home from the Bible study, I wrestled with the question: "What amazing dream have you really got for me, Lord?" And like an angel, my younger brother ministered to me. (Which I can call a miracle even, since it was usually the other way around, with me ministering to him. But you see, God knows how to humble our hearts for miracles.) He met with me at late evening just to help me conquer the conundrum once and for all. Even if it had to be over two Frappe grandes.
As my brother was talking to me, I could feel an inexplainable kind of excitement--like when you feel that something great is building up but you couldn't tell what. The conversation went on over decaf frappuccinos and two sheets of starbucks napkins which served as our sheets of paper. (Oh I wish I could post a snapshot here so that you could see how the breakthrough of my life was plotted on brown tissue papers! But my mom brought our cam to their company retreat today so I have no chance to photograph it and upload it tonight. But I shall find a way! Soon! Stay posted for the next blog posts! The conversation in itself is another story of its own!)
And with much scribbles and life searching--would you believe it--I finally saw God's dream for my life! Leaping from my devotion in John 15:8 (when Jesus called us to ABIDE IN HIM AS HE IN US), "By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples," my vision is now clear!
Oh this dream-- To start off, I can tell you these things: it's got all my passions mixed together! And music! And writing! And love! And people! And generations! And most importantly, a sole purpose to win souls and make disciples!
How I wish I can detail everything in here for you tonight, but I better leave it for another post wherein I can also show you our momentous napkin scribbles. But for now, let me share with you the dream statement we arrived at:
TO BEAR MUCH FRUIT IN THE KEY OF A (A which stands for Abiding). :D
Yes, the musician in me has got the best of this statement. But nevertheless, this is now my North Star--to abide in Him and in His love, and to bear fruits of ministry and fruits of the Holy Spirit in abundance. How? Well, here's where this blog comes in!
Welcome to www.missionmusicph.blogspot.com! It is a blog about Him and, well, all the beautiful symphony that He causes me to live out. Stay a while! Listen along! Get inspired by stuff here and there. I pray that your life may be blessed by the fruits of the dream I found tonight. <3
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By the way, what's your dream? Have you found the God-given drive for your life? Or perhaps you were also like me, as clueless as an old Starbucks napkin? Well whatever, just share it with us here at the comments section! Would love to connect with you and pray for you!
